I had it in my mind that there was a dance event coming up. I know the girls in my class have been talking about September 13th. I didn’t want to be caught off guard without a proper routine, so I have been working on some moves.
Unbeknownst to me that is the date of our dance recital. Now I am in a panic to get a new outfit. Just my normal hip scarf will not do for performance. Plus I know what I want. I did find it one-line. Buy it was not in stock. Then I had to start from scratch. Goodness, all this for one evening.
I have been looking at pages of websites with spangles and beaded bra tops. It makes the mind reel. There are so many choices, and styles. I know what I want and later it will look good.
After two days of searching I found what I wanted in my size at the Velvet Gypsy, in Venice Ca. I am rarely in Venice, and I had to jam down there before they closed at 6pm. I am now the proud owner of a blue and gold beaded bra and belt with a gold skirt. It will go nicely with my gold and blue vale.
Yes, the question begs to be asked, am I crazy? I just turned 39 a few weeks ago and I am not skinny. Am I really going to get up in public and belly dance? If I asked my mother and sister, they would tell me not to do it. My sister would tell me I am too fat to get up and dance. My mother would agree. Which is why don’t talk to them and haven’t in years. The belly dance community is so much more accepting. They just tell you, that you’re a goddess and get out there and shake you thing! Not to worry about your shape and just have fun. This is why I even think I can do this. I have always been a dancer and I love it. On the plus side of this, all this dancing will help my waistline!
This chapter in my life will go down as, “how I dealt with getting older”. In the last few years I have been going to Pilates, surfing and now belly dancing. This is all in an effort to lose some weight before I turn 40, when it’s just a downhill ride to menopause. I know heavy women have a hard time with it, so I just want to be fitter as I get older. It also helps to keep bone mass.
As it is things are going well and will all this dancing it should get better. I have a goal with the upcoming performance to keep me on track as well. Here goes nothing! Or everything, just more dancing.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Can’t wait
Some things we need to wait for: food to be cooked, events to come around, friends to show up for dinner. Of course some are more difficult to wait for than others.
I have been waiting for some friends to come my house for dinner. I have asked them several times, and they flaked out. It was sad because I really enjoy their company, so I was very disappointed. This last weekend they finally made it and it was great! I always have a good time when I see them and they make me laugh till I cry. That’s why when they didn’t show I was so bummed. This last time made up for it all.
I have other friends from Europe I am waiting for them to visit the states and stay at my home. One is from Switzerland and the other family is from Scotland and I can’t wait to see them again. But I will have to. I know we will have a great time when they do get here, so it is well worth the wait.
I have been waiting for my book to get published and I have to wait longer. That part is up to me and to get this manuscript up to par. The waiting part comes when I send the first chapter out and see what will happen next. In the mean time I have this blog and my work to keep me busy.
Something’s I will not wait for. If something bothers me, like a problem with a friend I have to get that out and over with as soon as possible. I have called them at work or school. Once I get it off my chest and we resolve it, once I do it’s all good and I can go about my day. I don’t bring it up again and we move on. It’s not that I lose sleep over it, but if it still bothers me in the morning, I know I have to make a call or text or email. As long as I can air things out, I am fine.
When there is a block to airing things out, or someone tells me they can’t or won’t talk about it right then. I can’t stand it. That’s when things get bad and they get bigger than they would have been if I could have spoken to them right away. Or if they just get so defensive I can’t tell them how I feel, then the whole point of talking about what is bothering me is totally lost.
If I have to wait and wait to get things out than I feel as if they don’t care and I shouldn’t even bother trying to resolve things. I get so discouraged it seems pointless to try again. That doesn’t happen with most of my friends, they are always willing to hear me out and we make up quickly. Travel can wait, food can wait, talking to someone you care about like a friend, and I can’t wait.
I have been waiting for some friends to come my house for dinner. I have asked them several times, and they flaked out. It was sad because I really enjoy their company, so I was very disappointed. This last weekend they finally made it and it was great! I always have a good time when I see them and they make me laugh till I cry. That’s why when they didn’t show I was so bummed. This last time made up for it all.
I have other friends from Europe I am waiting for them to visit the states and stay at my home. One is from Switzerland and the other family is from Scotland and I can’t wait to see them again. But I will have to. I know we will have a great time when they do get here, so it is well worth the wait.
I have been waiting for my book to get published and I have to wait longer. That part is up to me and to get this manuscript up to par. The waiting part comes when I send the first chapter out and see what will happen next. In the mean time I have this blog and my work to keep me busy.
Something’s I will not wait for. If something bothers me, like a problem with a friend I have to get that out and over with as soon as possible. I have called them at work or school. Once I get it off my chest and we resolve it, once I do it’s all good and I can go about my day. I don’t bring it up again and we move on. It’s not that I lose sleep over it, but if it still bothers me in the morning, I know I have to make a call or text or email. As long as I can air things out, I am fine.
When there is a block to airing things out, or someone tells me they can’t or won’t talk about it right then. I can’t stand it. That’s when things get bad and they get bigger than they would have been if I could have spoken to them right away. Or if they just get so defensive I can’t tell them how I feel, then the whole point of talking about what is bothering me is totally lost.
If I have to wait and wait to get things out than I feel as if they don’t care and I shouldn’t even bother trying to resolve things. I get so discouraged it seems pointless to try again. That doesn’t happen with most of my friends, they are always willing to hear me out and we make up quickly. Travel can wait, food can wait, talking to someone you care about like a friend, and I can’t wait.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Next Year
We all make plans at the beginning of the year for things that we want to accomplish during the next year. The New Year’s resolution; I never do that in January, but rather, in September. I always think of September as the New Year. Maybe because my birthday is in August and September was always the beginning of school year.
For some reason the calendars for the next year are already out at the bookstores. I have to stop myself. I used to get a day calendar, a desk calendar, a wall calendar, and the free one at Hallmark stores and I would write in all of them. Yes, I had some obsessive need to write down my days’ activities in three different places, and I did too……scary.
It hasn’t been a complete waste of time, thankfully. I have used these notes to write my first book. I had tons of material to draw on. These days, I keep up a journal in my laptop and I still have my daily planner, which I sometimes write in. I keep some of my emails to friend....good stuff in there, and I know I will use it in another story sometime.
How are we doing with the plans we made in January? Have we been keeping up at the gym? Have we lost the weight we wanted or stopped smoking? I don’t say this to throw out a guilt trip. Every day on this earth is a day to try to do better. Do we only have to try in January? Or can we get back on the treadmill today?
What about me? I have been going to my exercise classes and have even added a belly dance class that I didn’t plan on. I haven’t dropped all the weight I wanted to by now, but am getting there. Still, things are better this year than last. My butt is smaller and I can be happy about that. I really look forward to Monday nights when I do two classes back to back. My friends are all happy and healthy and I get to see them on a regular basis. I get to go to work with people I really care about. I get to write and God blessed me with the ability to be witty, and it comes in handy sometimes. :-)
As for my goals, some are the same and some are different, like keeping up with surfing. I am still working on all of them. I still have lots of things I want to do with my life and yes tons more travel. I may never have kids, but one day you’ll see a photo of me at the top of Machu Pichu or in a Sari in India. Who knows? There is always next year.
For some reason the calendars for the next year are already out at the bookstores. I have to stop myself. I used to get a day calendar, a desk calendar, a wall calendar, and the free one at Hallmark stores and I would write in all of them. Yes, I had some obsessive need to write down my days’ activities in three different places, and I did too……scary.
It hasn’t been a complete waste of time, thankfully. I have used these notes to write my first book. I had tons of material to draw on. These days, I keep up a journal in my laptop and I still have my daily planner, which I sometimes write in. I keep some of my emails to friend....good stuff in there, and I know I will use it in another story sometime.
How are we doing with the plans we made in January? Have we been keeping up at the gym? Have we lost the weight we wanted or stopped smoking? I don’t say this to throw out a guilt trip. Every day on this earth is a day to try to do better. Do we only have to try in January? Or can we get back on the treadmill today?
What about me? I have been going to my exercise classes and have even added a belly dance class that I didn’t plan on. I haven’t dropped all the weight I wanted to by now, but am getting there. Still, things are better this year than last. My butt is smaller and I can be happy about that. I really look forward to Monday nights when I do two classes back to back. My friends are all happy and healthy and I get to see them on a regular basis. I get to go to work with people I really care about. I get to write and God blessed me with the ability to be witty, and it comes in handy sometimes. :-)
As for my goals, some are the same and some are different, like keeping up with surfing. I am still working on all of them. I still have lots of things I want to do with my life and yes tons more travel. I may never have kids, but one day you’ll see a photo of me at the top of Machu Pichu or in a Sari in India. Who knows? There is always next year.
Friday, August 8, 2008
Again
My dog Middy has gone into season and we are thinking about breeding her again. She is a great mom and her pups are always healthy and great. Every time I enjoy getting to know their personalities.
They all hold you finger with their front legs, just like their mother does. Middy loves to be scratched on her chest, so much so that she holds your hand there with her front paws. It’s so funny to see the pups do the same thing, even as young as a few days.
Middy is so good with them and takes such great care of them. Even as much as a tomboy as she is, when it comes down to it she can be quite motherly. It’s fun to watch her play with the pups and let them jump on her and bite at her and she is calm and lets them play and is so patent with them.
As for me, it’s a lot of hard work. The question really is, am I ready for a new litter of pups? I always love to see them and they are always so cute. That’s the thing about baby animals, even big ones like rhino’s or lions; all of them look so cute when they are young. No matter how big they all have that child-like innocence and look of wonderment in their eyes. How great is that? Plus puppies make everything better!
Of course they all grow up and as the pups get bigger I have to once again roll up my sleeves and clean up after them. People always remark that it would be too hard to give them away. Um, after cleaning up after 6 pups, yeah you can give them away.
We try our best to make sure they go to good homes and have been very fortunate in that regard. Usually only people who have already had Scotties want Scotties. I guess here goes nothing….again.
They all hold you finger with their front legs, just like their mother does. Middy loves to be scratched on her chest, so much so that she holds your hand there with her front paws. It’s so funny to see the pups do the same thing, even as young as a few days.
Middy is so good with them and takes such great care of them. Even as much as a tomboy as she is, when it comes down to it she can be quite motherly. It’s fun to watch her play with the pups and let them jump on her and bite at her and she is calm and lets them play and is so patent with them.
As for me, it’s a lot of hard work. The question really is, am I ready for a new litter of pups? I always love to see them and they are always so cute. That’s the thing about baby animals, even big ones like rhino’s or lions; all of them look so cute when they are young. No matter how big they all have that child-like innocence and look of wonderment in their eyes. How great is that? Plus puppies make everything better!
Of course they all grow up and as the pups get bigger I have to once again roll up my sleeves and clean up after them. People always remark that it would be too hard to give them away. Um, after cleaning up after 6 pups, yeah you can give them away.
We try our best to make sure they go to good homes and have been very fortunate in that regard. Usually only people who have already had Scotties want Scotties. I guess here goes nothing….again.
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