Age and time

With age and time we are supposed to acquire wisdom. Some of us do and others do not. Sometimes its a matter of how much drug use was involved in the younger years. I don't say that for myself, but for others. I have seen family members take an extra 10 years to figure things out.

The things I have learned at this age and with two failed attempts at business, is never to do business with friends. I hate that I have learned that. Not that it isn't true, it is all the expense and time and loss that has happened. It also hurts that now I am so protective of my pocket book. I have always been a generous person, to the extent that I could be. I would have loved to do more. Now with all the losses I have nothing much to give. If I have some food I will share it. I don't want my friends to go hungry.

What is so sad about all this, is that I was perfectly able to say no to my family. I have not talked with my mother for the better part of 10 years and that suits me just fine. If I had been close with her, I would have been guilt tripped in to paying for her life, not mine. I would be in worse shape than I am now.

However I was happy to help two friends and both times it turned our badly. We did not make a profit and it was a waste of time and money. Yes, I feel stupid about it all and while I have learned my lesson it was at a great cost. Some people are just takers and some are givers. My mother is a taker and that's why I'm not around her. These others are takers as well.

I don't want to be bitter and only look out for myself. I just have to be careful and resolve never to enter into business with friends. It has made me more on the alert, and I suppose that is a good thing. I suppose I didn't think my friends would be worse then my family. It has caused me great pain and sleepless nights and I'm glad most of that is behind me. My house could use a lot of work, but we don't have the money to fix it. So for now I am working hard at getting a job. I have to rely on myself and not friends. If I want things, I will have to work for them. It would be nice to see justice and to get some of what was lost, recovered. But at my age and given the time I have waited. Wisdom tells me, "Don't hold your breath!"

Asking

One of the things I have learned from working with men, is their ability to ask for and get what they want.

I have always found that to be pushy, but aren't they? If you watch "The Donald" he seems really pushy. I don't watch his reality TV Show, but I have heard about him enough to see that pushy side to him. Before the TV Show there was the book "The Art of the Deal", by Donald Trump. We

Part of being a "good girl" is not being pushy or demanding. As I get older, I am not worried about being a "good girl" I am more worried about not getting what I want and deserve at this age.

The key to this, is asking for it. Asking for the chance to perform, then following through and doing a good job. I have always done a good job. I have not always drawn people's attention to it. While it may seem simple to a man, this seems to be in direct conflict with how I was raised. It takes a lot for me to stand up and show off and self-promote. If I don't, I know I won't get anywhere. Yes, I have to ask people to read my blog, my 1st chapter of my book and ask if they will come to my performance. Usually the answer is Yes.

Car show

Last weekend I was able to go to car show in Vegas, not being a gambler I couldn't care less about the casinos. I work too hard for my money to throw it away.

It was nice to see classic cars some of which really had nice body work and others that don't. There were a lot of Rockabilly girls and some in outrageous outfits. As we get older we can also say, while the girls are pretty they just don't need to run around naked like that. Cute is cute and pretty lady-like out fits are always great. And yes trashy will always be trashy. There is no need to show off all that God gave you, in day light with small kids around. Mystery is worth its weight in gold. Make the guys work to see it, why give it away all up front? Yes I had a nice modest outfit on, and I still looked nice.

As for the cars, most were from SoCal. Not that its a surprise, since car culture is a SoCal thing. We have the warm weather to keep our cars looking nice. When you watch things like "American Pickers" you can see that other cars are going to waste in some ones yard, back east. They need to be rescued.

You do have to really look at them, some have really bad body work. Both the cars and the girls. Some are more obvious than others. So choose wisely. As for the girls, it can be helped with regular exercise and a better choice in food. Even in a buffet line there is fresh fruit and veggies. It will help your hair and skin have a nice look to it. Yes, put down the chips and pick up a piece of cantaloupe or red apple. As for the body work on the cars, it needs some welding, and a good paint job, it will be better.